14. 15. It’s the same

The last Friday and Saturday of October went by too fast! I just basically stayed at home, being my usual, lazy self again. I won’t even do some house chores that are waiting for me. Haha! I think I just slept those two days away because I badly want this sembreak to end. As I have said, if not for my friends who love me so much and are willing to do crazy things with me, I don’t think I’ll ever survive this most dreadful sembreak ever!

Of course, the thought of him is still there. So to let those negative thoughts out, I did one thing out my planner’s checklist - List 20 things you like about a person. Give that list to that person and make their day. However, I didn’t really wrote down a list of the things I like about that person but instead I drew 20 things that for me makes that person out of the ordinary. Also, I’m planning to give it on his birthday since he’s also turning 20 in a few days. He will always be a special person so I will give it to him no matter what. (Okay, I don’t know what I’m saying.)

It felt good drawing all those down, while reminiscing all those times we had. I’ve been wanting to also draw down things I hate about that person, but I figured it would just make me hate him more and it would look like I’m making a black book. So I tried my best to only draw all the fun and unique qualities about him..

Which reminded me of the reality that in liking or loving someone, you should accept him as a whole package - both with the good and bad qualities because it what makes him the person that he is. With all that’s happening, I keep looking at him negatively, this or that, forgetting the reality that from the start, ganon na sya. I am the one who chose to enter his kind of world so I must learn to accept the consequences that come with it, and blaming him wouldn’t really mean that much. Oh life..

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